presence and awareness

this is from Kip Mazuy from New Zealand…..he writes on presence and awareness.

I find it very helpful, as this process is not always an easy one, or all joyful… but if you are reading this, you are on your soul’s journey, and even if we wanted to, once we become more conscious, we can’t stop! So these words of wisdom have been soothing to my soul. enjoy.

“It is often said
that if you are present
then you are blissful.

But that is not the full truth.

If you are present
yes, most likely at first
there will be bliss,
there will be peace.

But if you remain present,
if you remain surrendered to
this moment and aware,
then awareness expands,
the Shakti expands.

It starts to push out
everything that is incongruent
with bliss.

It widens your energy channels
so that even more energy
can move through.

And the experience
cannot really be called bliss.

It is excruciating.

Not in a sense of pain
but intensity.

The ego wants it to stop
because it is pushing your awareness
beyond the boundaries of ego,
beyond what is comfortable.

And so the conflict between the ego
and the shakti creates intensity.

Like trying to stick your head
out of the window of a jet
going the speed of sound.

Many people learn
that if they surrender a little,
then they get blissful
and then they can contract back into ego.

A little expansion
a little contraction.

Nothing wrong with this.

But the longer you can
remain in the expansion,
the more expansion increases.

And this expansion
burns away the separateness.

Burns away
that which separates you
from unconditional peace and bliss.

The action of identification,
the core stress of
‘me’ and ‘mine’
that separates you from life
gets burned away in this shakti
until you realize
that this fiery consciousness
is what you are.

And that is freedom.

I say this because many people
reach a certain intensity of awareness
and then back off.

Because they heard a teacher
say that if they are present
they will be blissful.

And so they were present
but instead of bliss
there was this intensity
so they think something must be wrong.

But there is nothing wrong.
That is the process.

What is happening
here and now
is exactly as it is supposed to be.

Being present
does not guarantee
a certain experience.

But it is the doorway
to unconditional peace and bliss.
And you feel that opening immediately.

Blessings,

Kip”